Joshua claimed to be a Christian and had many fooled but not himself. He knew his heart and living a double life was hard and it all finally came crashing down. This is Joshua’s testimony.

James 1:8 A double minded man is unstable in all his ways.

John 3:16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. 17 For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved. 18 He that believeth on him is not condemned: but he that believeth not is condemned already, because he hath not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God. 19 And this is the condemnation, that light is come into the world, and men loved darkness rather than light, because their deeds were evil.